About
Hi, I'm Rachael. As you might've guessed by now, I'm not your classic "wellness coach." I help clients create a safe container for exploring what their health and wellness journey has yet to uncover. We'll lean on intuition to create new insights and transform symptoms into sacredness. .....What does all this really mean?! It means I'll be using my training in Breathwork, Internal Family Systems, Nutrition, Coaching, and the Enneagram to illuminate the real story behind your fatigue, emotional storms, relationship conflict, sugar cravings, and energy crashes. |
It means wellness work & spiritual practice will harmonize in our time together to bring you the greatest possible outcomes!
My Story
How the Constant Cycle of "Solving" My Health Challenges Was Transformed into A Path of Deep Listening - Body, Heart, Head, and Spirit
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Friends! I'm not going to cut corners in telling my story. It is not in the form of a digestible sound bite or a scrollable instagram meme.
It is rich with my heart and was a healing even to write.... and that is the depth of possibility available to all my clients as we dive into our stories, into our inner landscapes.
There's a lot of fresh truth to be gleaned from a scrollable meme, I won't deny it, but our work together will be going far, far beyond that reality..... so read on if this depth is what you seek.....
It is rich with my heart and was a healing even to write.... and that is the depth of possibility available to all my clients as we dive into our stories, into our inner landscapes.
There's a lot of fresh truth to be gleaned from a scrollable meme, I won't deny it, but our work together will be going far, far beyond that reality..... so read on if this depth is what you seek.....
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Looking back, my journey toward deep listening began as I was first transitioning into womanhood.
It began as I was navigating not only the hormonal evolution of early adolescence, but the simultaneous expression of myself as a sexual being.
With very little modeling for the vitality and sexual life force I felt in my body, or how to tend to this new growth with sacredness at the forefront, this season of transition was fraught with difficulty.
For many related reasons, some of which branch from that central struggle and others a result of reoccurring family trauma, this turbulent time was a fast track toward experimentation with cigarette smoking, drug using, risk taking, and, here's the key: dissociation from my body and my instincts.
A body and a constellation of instincts that only felt like chaos without a way to integrate what was truly vitality, capacity, and life force emerging.
With a deep knowing that everything about this trajectory was out of alignment for me, right from the beginning of using drugs and alcohol at 12 years old, I was already working to crack the case of “what is wrong with Rachael” and what I would need to do to redeem myself…. to be "good" again, to be "whole" again.
It began as I was navigating not only the hormonal evolution of early adolescence, but the simultaneous expression of myself as a sexual being.
With very little modeling for the vitality and sexual life force I felt in my body, or how to tend to this new growth with sacredness at the forefront, this season of transition was fraught with difficulty.
For many related reasons, some of which branch from that central struggle and others a result of reoccurring family trauma, this turbulent time was a fast track toward experimentation with cigarette smoking, drug using, risk taking, and, here's the key: dissociation from my body and my instincts.
A body and a constellation of instincts that only felt like chaos without a way to integrate what was truly vitality, capacity, and life force emerging.
With a deep knowing that everything about this trajectory was out of alignment for me, right from the beginning of using drugs and alcohol at 12 years old, I was already working to crack the case of “what is wrong with Rachael” and what I would need to do to redeem myself…. to be "good" again, to be "whole" again.
The early cycles of using drugs, and then getting sober and unraveling part of my addictive process, but then using drugs again… and then getting sober once more…. it was all the very beginning of a theme that my health and wellness journey would actually reinforce many, many years later:
The cycle of perceiving myself as wrong or sick or unwell or unhealthy, and then questing to make myself “better.”
The cycle of implementing some solution in an experimental way, often experiencing a measure of temporary relief, only to then be left with the persistent sense of my own dis-ease, loss of vitality, and dissociation from Self underlying it all.
So despite the obvious triumph in my early 20s when I hit "rock bottom," let go of cocaine for good, and entered into new motherhood, early recovery actually just foreshadowed the ensuing decade where I was initiated into a whole new version of this cycle: the world of "chronic illness."
Starting with a diagnosis of autoimmune thyroiditis, I would go on to be told by various practitioners that I had adrenal fatigue/HPAT axis dysregulation, candida overgrowth, interstitial cystitis, mold sensitivity, and general dysbiosis associated with SIBO, H. pylori, food sensitivities, and a parasite. The labels they gave me were almost irrelevant. All I knew was that I felt exhausted, irritable, foggy, and emotionally volatile.
Still dissociating from my body and my instincts, still perceiving myself as in need of "fixing," I would now spend innumerable hours and thousands of dollars in the early years of motherhood, contending with new sobriety and a slew of physical ailments, while I worked and worked and worked to eliminate my symptoms, like I was getting a PhD in myself.
I tried more healing modalities than you might even know exist.
I wanted to crack the code. I wanted to solve the problem of myself.
This, my friends, is why I truly went to graduate school for integrative nutrition. I gave everything - time, money, and heart - to the quest of unraveling what was "wrong" with me, and then teaching others how to hack their wellness routines.
After a decade of this questing and testing, and trying new protocols, and implementing new diets, and seeing new practitioners, and strategizing with new techniques.... and getting two Master's degrees.....
....eventually I hit a wall driven by a profound knowing that I was missing a key, critical, irreplaceable element of this journey.....
"I must return to my body, to my instincts, and to a deep inner listening to the life force of my Sacred Self."
When you don't know how to listen deeply because your body's not a safe space, when it feels like your body's betrayed you with illness, these moments can absolutely shake you. Nevertheless, at some point I began to disciple myself toward spiritual practice and turned my journey from externally searching to gently inquiring within.
Okay, I'll be honest, sometimes it wasn't so gentle.
....eventually I hit a wall driven by a profound knowing that I was missing a key, critical, irreplaceable element of this journey.....
"I must return to my body, to my instincts, and to a deep inner listening to the life force of my Sacred Self."
When you don't know how to listen deeply because your body's not a safe space, when it feels like your body's betrayed you with illness, these moments can absolutely shake you. Nevertheless, at some point I began to disciple myself toward spiritual practice and turned my journey from externally searching to gently inquiring within.
Okay, I'll be honest, sometimes it wasn't so gentle.

As I fumbled in the dark for how to do this work, sometimes it was thrashing about in the middle of the night contacting rage I didn't realize I had.
Sometimes it was sitting in my car to cry so I could sob as loud as I wanted without waking up my children.
Sometimes it was gentle, though, journaling about the ways I felt stuck in my marriage and wondering if that was contributing towards my lethargy.
Or, learning to notice and nurture the subtle reminders of vitality and exquisite pleasure in my body…those small seedlings from when I was an early teen and turned to drugs instead of deepening a partnership with my life force energy.
Ultimately, there were incredibly painful revelations about what it means to live in the midst of a patriarchal world order as a woman, releasing stored trauma from ancestors and generations before me who were drowned and burned alive for their intuitive gifts and their sexual power.
Sometimes it was sitting in my car to cry so I could sob as loud as I wanted without waking up my children.
Sometimes it was gentle, though, journaling about the ways I felt stuck in my marriage and wondering if that was contributing towards my lethargy.
Or, learning to notice and nurture the subtle reminders of vitality and exquisite pleasure in my body…those small seedlings from when I was an early teen and turned to drugs instead of deepening a partnership with my life force energy.
Ultimately, there were incredibly painful revelations about what it means to live in the midst of a patriarchal world order as a woman, releasing stored trauma from ancestors and generations before me who were drowned and burned alive for their intuitive gifts and their sexual power.
There are volumes and volumes more on all of this, with several new trainings and certifications along the way that helped me understand how to do this deeper work. For now, it's enough just to say that the shift I eventually learned to make was to stop looking for someone outside of myself, some external authority, to tell me what to do to “fix” my body.
The radical transformation was to realize that my body was doing exactly what it was supposed to be doing. It was screaming at me, in a hundred different languages, asking me to finally pay attention to all that I was ignoring:
Themes in my marriage; my perceived loss of power as a woman within patriarchal systems; my actual loss during moments of abuse and exploitation; untold stories from my ancestral line; and the fact that I was in a time loop of solving myself instead of being myself.
Once I surrendered to these truths, in my own timing and with immense support...once I attuned to true listening, more and more has revealed itself over time about how to harmonize
At the end of my long winding road of sexual awakening, and active addiction, and chronic illness, and ultimate spiritual awakening, was merely another fork onto another road..... but on this one, the journey of wellness continues with a beautiful and newfound harmony between
The radical transformation was to realize that my body was doing exactly what it was supposed to be doing. It was screaming at me, in a hundred different languages, asking me to finally pay attention to all that I was ignoring:
Themes in my marriage; my perceived loss of power as a woman within patriarchal systems; my actual loss during moments of abuse and exploitation; untold stories from my ancestral line; and the fact that I was in a time loop of solving myself instead of being myself.
Once I surrendered to these truths, in my own timing and with immense support...once I attuned to true listening, more and more has revealed itself over time about how to harmonize
- implementation of the protocols, and specialists, and techniques that will accompany us in our wellness walk
- with the inner journeys, and the deep breaths, and the intuitive hits, and the sensual awarenesses that only can arise when you slow down and really listen for them.
At the end of my long winding road of sexual awakening, and active addiction, and chronic illness, and ultimate spiritual awakening, was merely another fork onto another road..... but on this one, the journey of wellness continues with a beautiful and newfound harmony between
- the practical and logistical ways of managing wellness care (activating change, accomplishing, resolving)
- with the gentle and sweet receptivity that comes from partnering a different type of sacredness in the wellness journey…
Within this new harmony we find an “is-ness,” a “here-ness,” a perfection in our bodies by the mere fact that we are alive and living in them.... and if you want to get really wild and crazy, accepting a perfection even in the moment when we finally surrender those bodies…. all as the natural order of things.
So on this new road, my body isn't perfect, my symptoms aren't all magically resolved every day, but my partnership with them, my understanding of them, my capacity to receive information from them has taken my experience here on this planet to a whole new level...has been transformed in ways I never could've imagined.
And that, my sisters, is the work that I am here to do with you!
If you've been on this wellness wheel for a while and you have yet to truly have another woman hold you in safe space as you plumb the depths of your own heart, your own body, your own mind, and your own soul, consider this your first heartfelt invitation into a new way of partnering yourself on the path of psychospiritual wellness.
Here's to a life well-lived and a soul fully expressed. ❤️
So on this new road, my body isn't perfect, my symptoms aren't all magically resolved every day, but my partnership with them, my understanding of them, my capacity to receive information from them has taken my experience here on this planet to a whole new level...has been transformed in ways I never could've imagined.
And that, my sisters, is the work that I am here to do with you!
If you've been on this wellness wheel for a while and you have yet to truly have another woman hold you in safe space as you plumb the depths of your own heart, your own body, your own mind, and your own soul, consider this your first heartfelt invitation into a new way of partnering yourself on the path of psychospiritual wellness.
Here's to a life well-lived and a soul fully expressed. ❤️